Impending Doom or Reconciliation?

Well, tonight we are going to Ct for the first time in - well for me, it has been nearly two months. And it has definitely been since before we were married. I have high hopes for this weekend. We have an album to show, and conversations that need to be had. They will be difficult and I'm still not sure of my role.

Plosk is quickly learning his place within my family. My parents have welcomed him in a bigger way than I thought possible. They ask us out to dinner- we laugh and enjoy each other's company. They have warmed up to him in every way. They were a huge help with the wedding, and have continued to show their affection for us by being supportive at all times. We had thought my family would be the difficult ticket to sell when revealing our upcoming nuptials. After all, I had spent much more time in CT with his family one on one than he had with my family. But it turned out to be the opposite. My family accepted our decisions, what we wanted and did their best to work within the guidelines we had set for the day we desired. I don't want to clump people together. Some of Plosk's family was very supportive. And others had a hard time dealing with what we wanted verses what they thought our wedding should be. Every family works differently. It's a matter of adjusting to a new system I am now a part of.

K, my old coach, now co-worker, is at her brother's wedding this weekend. It is a monstrous wedding where everyone was invited. There is a certain charm to this type of event. Huge parties are fun especially with close families, but I find that people tend to stay in their cliques and not move around. At our wedding, I'm confident that everyone spoke to everyone. I know I did. And that was the point.

The miscommunication that has taken place about our wedding has been avoided. The hurt has been shoved to the side. I know Plosk was hurt, and because of that I felt a great deal of anger. I also know that I was hurt and didn't feel accepted by the family because of all the drama. This has put a damper on our first month of marriage. This weekend is the weekend to put an end to it. It has occupied too many conversations, too much brain power and has left a bitter cold feel in the warm winter air. This is going to be a big weekend, and we'll see how it turns out.

On the positive side, I'm excited to see some friends and family we haven't seen since the wedding. Brian and Jack especially. I think we're going to head out for some Japanese food Sunday night in New Haven. One of the frustrating things about Ct feeling awkward lately has been that we haven't seen people we usually like to see often. Fingers crossed to everything going smoothly.